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Getting a bit burnt out

For a long time I used to get on SD just about every day, whenever I was at my computer and didn't have any other plans for the day besides working, but lately I haven't really been feeling like getting on as much. I don't know whether it's just getting burnt out, or if the really negative atmosphere is starting to wear on me, or what.

This isn't any kind of "I'm leaving!" declaration, but I just wanted to let whoever might be interested know why I haven't been around as much. If I do feel the need to take a more extended break from SD, I'll try and sort everything out ICly first and give a good reason for my character's absence. Thanks in advance for understanding.

I'll miss you most of all. :'(

Hugs!

I understand. I needed a break the other night and saw a movie. Took some time.

Going outside, real life, I understand that and we're here when you want to put in some time. :)

It's understandable. Sometimes, when you're so committed to the game, you can wear yourself out on it. For me, it's an incredible release, but I've found that frustration can lead to the same ends. My personal failings have cut me off from things I valued, which has at times frustrated me greatly. Taking time to breathe has helped.

So, rest if you need to rest. Maybe try something different if you are eligible for a vacation character? Ultimately, it's a game, not a job. Nobody'll blame yo for taking a rest. :)

I've thought about it a bit and I think I'm going to take an extended/indefinite break from SD, at least for a while. There's a lot of reasons for this I won't go into, but I can't enjoy the game in earnest right now. Of course I'll try and stick around long enough to hash out a good IC reason for my character to up and vanish, but there's no sense trying to maintain a hobby that I'm not enjoying.

That being said, I'm extremely grateful for the great RP I've had and I'll never forget the wonderful relationships my character's built with all yours. I do hope that you'll be able to keep having fun and making great RP in my absence!

*tears up* I'll miss you if you go.. But do what's right for you. I say try an extended break, like two weeks or even a month, and see what it does for you. Now excuse me while I don't take my own advice... Heh.

thanks for agreeing to stick around while i tested the waters buddyyy

i'll catch u on the flipside (skype)

You're welcome!! (for the record I was getting burnt out before this but amika coming back helped rekindle my interest, we didn't have like a pact or anything)

Can we be skype friends? I don't wanna lose neat people who are taking forever breaks. :c

Sure! My Skype name is TotalRix if you wanna add me.

Okay all my regular RP partners are grabbing my heartstrings and tugging them relentlessly so I will probably come back and try playing again after a break! I'll at least be back in time for my character's birthday in February.

I know the feeling you are referring to, I have had it myself. There was a point when I did not log in for like a month, maybe more. When I finally decided to come back, I was going to wrap up anything ICly he had going on and go out on a high note, but the RP that ended up coming from this was so good that I am still with that character now. A break definitely helps. You come back and ICly have to learn what has happened in your absence, which is usually fun to do. There is usually new characters when you come back and sometimes missing ones <.< >.>..

I have RP'd with your character a few times, but not on a regular basis. It was always entertaining either way. Take the break, try not to even think about Sindome while you do. Then a few weeks from now pop back on to see if you can find that interest again, even if (like Kuryama said) it is with a vacation character that is the polar opposite of your current character. Having fun is the key part of this game, if you aren't having fun, then obviously some kind of routine change is in order.

Good luck and if/when you are ready to come back we will be here.

I'm going to be taking a break from playing as much as I have been. I've been burnt out on being a player here at Sindome for a good month or two but I stick around because I love my character and the story lines that I'm involved in and I genuinely tried to stick it out to keep learning about the game so I had a shot a being a GM for you wonderful folks .

Having been told today that I will NEVER be a GM here by an Admin that hope is gone and now a lot of my interest in the game has just fell to 0.

I'll be on here and there, checking on things, pushing any story arcs along that need it and maybe one day I'll bloom back into full interest.

Sorry to hear that stryder, I had the pleasure of RPing with you in several occasions and I can say that over time you have developed a knack for it.

Also you have been very open and shown eagerness OCly about wanting to be GM. All that I can tell you is NEVER is a very long time.

In the great words of contemporary songwriters and philosophers Justin Bieber & Jaden Smith, I tell you "Never say never".

All jokes aside, taking a break might not be a bad idea like many other players have said before.

Thanks for your kind words and encouragement.

I've actually been GM'ing in tabletops for over five years now and Roleplaying in general for over a decade in several formats. This was the first game with a such negative and competitive theme to it so it was quite the culture shock and took some time getting used to, which was part of the reason I was burnt out on being a player and looking forward to being a GM here. The personal stress of competition with a player character is too much, but take that away and replace it with the act of GM'ing (which I love doing which is why I keep hosting campaigns on tabletops) and I would have found Sindome a very enjoyable thing to distract myself with and provide the Staff with a GM that is around pretty often.

Never was their words not mine.

I was about to clarify what I meant by never when you logged off suddenly.

GM voting has to be unanimous among the active staff typically. And as it stands right now, I don't think you'd meld well with the team because of OOC and XHELP interactions. You'd be one of my GM's, I am the Head GM. For as long as I am a GM and for as long as you're unable to improve upon your OOC interactions and IC interactions then I can't change never into maybe someday in the distant future, show some improvement and that might happen. It's not a guarantee. And it's 100% dependent on you.

When I asked you to be nicer to a player that is trying to help the game by giving information to newbies you responded to me that GMs don't have to be nice, to sum it up. Incorrect. I can be a dick sometimes when I am super stressed out over staff related OOC reasons but I always apologize and try to make it up to the players I offend.

GMs need to be strict but they also need to be able to work well and comfortably with the community so everyone has a better experience.

You've got this sent to you on the forums because you chose to air this issue here.

Have a good day.

How I choose to roleplay my character should have no weight on consideration for a GM.

GMs do not have to be nice, that does not mean they need to be strict nor does it mean they have to be dicks, nor does it mean that they are not sometimes nice.

You assume that my interactions would be the same as a GM as they are as a player and all I have to say to that is: What is that age old adage about assumptions?

I think your response to my post highlights why I don't think I can work with you and additionally have you work you under me as a GM.

IC interactions as a player are are very important to determining who might make a good GM and trying to determine the quality of RP coming from a GM through puppets, plots and otherwise.

If you can't 'play' the theme/game then you can't GM it either in my eyes.

We're quite thorough and having a strong team that gets along is very important to us. I hope you can understand that.

And that is where I think you are wrong. GM'ing is not about playing the game it is about telling stories.

Honestly the conversations over xhelp should have immediately ended where it was confirmed that I was not being rude and thus not breaking any rules. The fact that you continue to step over the line and badger me over xhelp about my interactions with other players without there being a formal complaint about it by other players I believe is unwarranted and poking a sleeping bear. I have had numerous open conversations with Staff explaining why I come off the way I do and I even took a hiatus off the OOC-Chat channel because of such a discussion.

As for Head GM, you guys need to clarify this stuff out sometimes, because I swear that hat gets passed around more often than I've seen on any other game.

Also if you want to say that the quality of my RP is below par when I've had several players and Admin tell me otherwise I think that is a cheap shot. You dislike how my character responds to things, well that is my choice to make not yours but the -quality- of that RP has never been questioned by any GM but yourself.

Sometimes it feels like you have a personal vendetta against me.

i'd just like to state that the few times i have bear witness to your deaths all you do is emote sigh which honestly does not help your case of quality of rp, just from experience but most people don't sigh when they're getting beaten up

That is because at those times both OOC and IC I did not see a need for the RP to go the way that it had and there is plenty of times through various mediums where you watch someone being beaten up sighing because they have in effect given up with what they were attempting to do and then focus on fighting.

You've missed the several if not dozens of times I've roleplayed other things while being beaten up.

I apologize for following this tangent and further derailing this topic off tracks, I just want point out that there ARE legitimate reasons to RP a bad situation in a different way than the standard way that doesn't make it any more legitimate or means poor RP from the player. Just like I've been told multiple times before by staffers and other players, there are things going on that you don't know or you don't see.

Much like you might get beaten down for motives beyond your comprehension or in a manner that seems poorly RPed, there might be reason for this abnormal behavior. Same goes when you get beaten down. Several characters or most of them (sorry for the generalization) are not in they right mind, which to me seems to be (joke coming) a syndrome of the sindome theme.

I remember this one time, one of my characters was being tortured to death and I was threaten to get voided because he wasn't reacting in a standard way and was confused with more RPing. However, that character came from a background where get to tortured and experimented on daily bases, so it didn't seem wrong for him to no respond normally.

Also I had another time, when another character got trapped, saw it coming and still went with it and when it happened he started laughing like a maniac until his last breath, because he felt so powerless and stupid he couldn't believe himself. Also he had a very dark sense of humor and the situation seemed tragically hilarious to him.

This things and others can happen, just because someone doesn't react to your expectation or standards doesn't mean it is bad RPing.

Brilliant example: http://vimeo.com/76222473

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Disclaimer: That being said and regardless of personal opinions or taste. All rulings on RPing in sindome befall to the judgment of the staffers and are absolute.

In response to the standing up to torture stuff. This is one aspect of the game where your RP should reflect your stats, your strength and endurance should be a clear indicator as to how much physical exhaustion and abuse your character can take. Every player is expected to RP their stats, even if you write it into your history, your stats are the defining variable.

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I apologize for following this tangent and further derailing this topic off tracks, I just want point out that there ARE legitimate reasons to RP a bad situation in a different way than the standard way, doesn't make it any less legitimate or means poor RP from the player. Just like I've been told multiple times before by staffers and other players, there are things going on that you don't know or you don't see.

Much like you might get beaten down for motives beyond your comprehension or in a manner that seems poorly RPed, there might be reason for this abnormal behavior. Same goes when you get beaten down. Several characters or most of them (sorry for the generalization) are not in they right mind, which to me seems to be (joke coming) a syndrome of the sindome theme.

I remember this one time, one of my characters was being tortured to death and I was threaten to get voided because he wasn't reacting in a standard way and was confused with poor RPing. However, that character came from a background where he got tortured and experimented on daily bases, so it didn't seem wrong for him to not respond normally.

Also I had another time, when another character got trapped, saw it coming and still went with it and when it happened he started laughing like a maniac until his last breath, because he felt so powerless and stupid that he couldn't believe himself. Also he had a very dark sense of humor and the situation seemed tragically hilarious and ironic to him.

These things and others can happen, just because someone doesn't react to your expectation or standards doesn't mean it is bad RPing.

Brilliant example: http://vimeo.com/76222473

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Disclaimer: That being said and regardless of personal opinions or taste. All rulings on RPing in sindome befall to the judgment of the staffers and are absolute.

I'd like to point out that a lot of damage and pain is reflected in Brad Pitt's performance there. If you're just laughing and not posing all of that then it doesn't LOOK like that type of performance, it looks like you're ignoring damage and pain all together and just laughing in a meta way.

A lot of detail goes into RPing crazy as fuck to make sure it doesn't look meta.

I agree 100% but sometimes the people torturing and beating you don't give you the time or have the patience to wait for you to post and elaborate and detailed emote of how your character feels and all you can muster sadly is a command emote like /laugh /sigh /etc.

".shudder violently." enter

".howl out in pain." enter

".laugh maniacly through grunts of agony." enter

They don't have to be paragraphs to get the point out.

It's common courtesy to allow someone the time to pose back. Eloquence is important. If someone spams four emotes in a row, OOCLY send a message asking for time to reply. We're all here to role-play after all. I'd prefer to wait a few minutes for a decent response than to hear a common 'laugh' or 'chuckle'

Actually, that is not the case. Block poses are not the preferred method of posing, stream posing is. However, it shouldn't be so fast that people cant' keep up, you're right.

@stryder: I am not sure what character(s) you have played, so I will not comment on the quality of your RP. I will say however, that Cerberus's first post on this thread pointed out it was more of an OOC issue than how you play your character ICly. Not keeping to the theme ICly, is an issue as well, if this is the case(As I have said, not sure what character(s) you have played so I am not saying you are at fault in this)

On an OOC level, bringing this topic to the bitch boards, is a good example of how you show a lack in the maturity necessary to be a GM. You took a conversation between you and the staff and brought it up as a "Well they said this, woe is me" type of statement. Things did not go your way in the initial conversation so you took it public to try and get support from others, childish.

Also, if you feel you have been burnt out just on the playerside and get frustrated enough OOCly and ICly to just 'sigh' while getting the shit beat out of you. That does not speak well of the possibility of you being able to handle puppets (possibly more than one at a time) and continue to RP themely even when the players involved don't act in accordance with what you deem necessary with your 'story telling'.

UNRELATED:

PocketFace: It's good to see you back, chum. Hopefully you will stick around ICly. :P

How I choose to roleplay my character should have no weight on consideration for a GM.

Guess what, it's not.

Cerberus was very clear that your unfitness for GM was about your OOC behavior and attitudes. The 'GM fitness' discussion isn't about your character ICly.

GMs have no control whatsoever over whether other players make comments here which ARE about your character and your RP.

I think this sums it up perfectly:

Stryder: The personal stress of competition with a player character is too much, but take that away and replace it with the act of GM'ing [...] and I would have found Sindome a very enjoyable thing

Cerbeus: If you can't 'play' the theme/game then you can't GM it either in my eyes.

Mine too.

The original poster was being gracious about burnout. The topic hijacker is being ungracious about sour grapes.

In my eyes.

Cerberus made it very clear that it -WAS- about IC things as well as OOC things.

I didn't mean to jack the thread, I meant to state my opinions, let people know I would be gone and not around as often.

@Swashbuckler: They started the conversation over something that didn't need to be spoken about. I was not breaking any rules, there was no reason to be contacted they way I have been repeatedly by Cerberus through xhelp. It was not about me not getting my way, it was me being tired of being attacked when Cerberus and all the staff know of why I appear to be cold and uncaring even if that is not necessarily how I mean it and there is a serious lack of any grace in the way he approaches me. If you've ever been frustrated enough to sigh at things -lesser- than being attacked well then it only makes sense that someone would sigh when things sour and do not go in their favor and their frustrations go through.

In fact a lot of those times where i just 'sighed' there was more to be followed but because of how fast combat is I was unconscious before I could do my next emote.

It is a well known fact I dislike how quickly a lot of situations devolve into death of a character, but there have been a couple times where I didn't really have an issue with the death because it was just way too damn obvious why it happened or there was some decent RP that happened mid-way through that allowed me to do more than a simple one line emote and then get killed.

Also the fact that repeatedly I've been told that if I have a problem with stuff going on over xhelp, take it to the bitch boards. I didn't name the admin, I just said my problem and was ready to move on from there.

In the end, the full conversation is known only between the Staff and I, the full range of what has lead up to me finally reaching out over the bitchboards about it is only known between the Staff and me, so please reserve your judgement on wither or not it was "mature" to bring it to... guess what THE BITCH BOARDS

@Linekin I didn't intend to 'topic hijack' my original two posts were clearly in the spirit of the topic and were not intended in any way to be anything else. I swear I've told you guys I do not always come off as I intend to but you keep picking me apart like I have some hidden agenda. Another reason I want to take a break, because no matter how open and explanatory a couple of the Staff just don't seem to get it.

Cerberus made it very clear that it -WAS- about IC things as well as OOC things.

Sorry, I should have been more clear that I'm not speaking for Cerberus but for myself.

You need to be responsible for how you post and what you say and not make excuses for how it comes out after the fact. You either apologize and be humble or we judge you for the content of your posts/opinions to the fullest.

That's how it works when I say something stupid and have to apologize, I don't continue to act like it's other peoples fault because I said something stupid.

That being said. We XHELP when we feel something needs to be addressed and it doesn't have to break a rule. You've got to accept that and stop complaining as if we're doing something wrong. We're the staff, and you're the herniated player with a chip on their shoulder.

I don't make excuses after the fact, which is why I've had so many open conversations with Staff.

I didn't say anything "stupid" that required an apology, perhaps the intents of what I was saying needed clarified that I will agree on.

That being said, I'll stop complaining about it when you approach me with the grace and understanding that I've seen out of every other staffer but yourself.

I have had numerous open conversations with Staff explaining why I come off the way I do

I've told you guys I do not always come off as I intend

Both of these are true statements.

It doesn't matter. This isn't insensitivity, it's the reality that if you can't manage to come off the way you intend to come off, you can't make it other people's responsibility to mind-read.

And, failing to make yourself understood absolutely is an impediment against being an effective part of a working group of admins.

I don't see it as making excuses after the fact, myself, I see it as simply not achieving what you say you intend to achieve in the first place.

Nobody's 'picking you apart' like we mean to be mean, all we do is react to what you actually do and say. I don't actually think there's anything unclear about 'I'd rather GM than play'.

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Please read that in the admin @voice.

Good God...put on your big boy pants and stop acting like a child who didn't get their way. Its like 'I'm taking my toys and going to play over there - nyeh'. This is an adult game and no one should need coddling or act like this and then wonder why they aren't getting a position as a GM. I, as a player, would be offended after this display if they did ask you.

This is one of those moments where I'd really want to know who is everyone playing.

Sorry, had to vent that out.

I am tired of the OOC bitching. Sindome is a privilege not a right. A privilege I will -take away- from you if you're actions are ruining the game for other people.

If you want to stop playing or kill your character off:

http://www.sindome.org/bgbb/open-discussion/theme/killing-off-your-character-127/

If you want to bitch and moan and bring EVERYONE down and cause harm to the community with your bullshit negativity:

http://www.sindome.org/bgbb/game-discussion/game-problems/-rules-update-230/

If you want to bitch about admin (I suggest you find another game before I force you to with a life time ban):

http://www.sindome.org/bgbb/game-discussion/game-problems/people-bitching-about-admin-227/

Or maybe this thread will help:

http://www.sindome.org/bgbb/game-discussion/game-problems/admin-abuse-201/

Or maybe this thread:

http://www.sindome.org/bgbb/game-discussion/game-problems/ooc-bitching-196/

We are a VOLUNTEER STAFF. You do not have a RIGHT to be a GM. If you are only playing the game so that you can one day be a GM-- I suggest you go find another game. You are not wanted here.

We are people. We are welcoming of constructive criticisms. We try to work with people. We want cooperative competition. Those of you who think that the way we run the game is wrong or that admin are assholes can GO AWAY. PLAY ANOTHER GAME. Sindome -is what it is-. It is for the people that deserve to play it. The people that found the game and found a home. It is not any one persons personal playground or a ONE PLAYER GAME. If you don't like something, tough cookies. It's not changing just because YOU want it to. The game was created for EVERYONE, not for YOU specifically.

I will no longer be tolerating people attacking Staff. We have rule 2.H now because of all the negativity coming from a very small handful of players. If you are in that handful of players-- you are ruining the game for others. You are sapping the admin's creativity and willingness to sign in and contribute and puppet and code and build and answer gridmails and all the things that admin do.

Being an admin is not fun a lot of the time. We do it out of love.

Thank you to all the players that defended the Staff in this thread. You are the reason we continue to contribute. You are the reason we keep signing in.

If your goal is to undermine others OOCly, bitch, complain, tell admin how wrong they are, insult us, insult other players, get upset when you are told OOCly by an admin what you can and can't do, take your ball and go home, withhold RP, only RP when the 'story' suits you or your character or benefits you or your character-- GO PLAY ANOTHER GAME AND NEVER COME BACK. If you decide to stay then please consider this a final, public warning that there isn't even thin ice beneath you.