Hello all,
I don't mean to drag up a dead thread, well… guess I do. Yesterday I recieved an email from someone who read something I posted here a long time ago. The [email protected] redirect was still up, and I'm still using the old [email protected] e-mail addy, so I was reminded of a game I loved a long time ago.
I looked around, and found some people gone, some still around. Did a google search, and I *think* this is the only thread that mentioned me after I left.
I also realized that I left without saying goodbye. I did say goodbye to Johnny privately, knowing that if I didn't use it, my bit should be removed, but I never said goodbye to anyone else.
I've felt an apathy for over 4 years now. Can't explain it, but I have. Sindome gave me a burst of energy from it, but eventually my Sindome activities were also affected by it.
When something inspires me, I get excited, I even get energetic. I can focus so well that I feel nothing can stop me... unfortunately in every case, the apathy sets in, the energy fades, and the focus is gone.
I can say anything I want, I'm not banned, I don't think I severely pissed anyone off, and I doubt anyone will flame me for this post. But, if I could only say one thing, it would be this...
Few things inspired me as much as Sindome, and if I had any energy to do anything at all, it would be to give Sindome as much as it had given me.
That's the one thing... but I can still say more :)
Sindome is an awesome concept, and while I was a part, an awesome family. I can honestly say that I liked every admin I served with, and every player I played with.
I faded away quietly because I was ashamed I couldn't contribute more. And when I knew I had nothing left to contribute, I let Johnny know, and left without a word.
All that said, just a couple things Rastus said in this thread I've got to clear up. First... I idled so much as an admin because I wanted to stay caught up. I wanted to read the scrollback and know exactly what was going on, rather than log in and be clueless. The idle times got longer, the active times got shorter. I had a brief second wind, and when I realize I lost it after two days, I knew it was over.
For my IC character, Imp... half the UE-ness was from another system that needs not be mentioned, that my character used for IC purposes in the hopes of getting his memory back. He was a UE whore, yes, but who hasn't been? Imp could've hacked and slashed all day long, but didn't. I think that over his entire active lifetime, he was in 3 IC fights (a couple test fights too, but that was OOC). Once while attacked (he died), and twice defending friends. Frankly, for all the UE he had, I think that's the only 3 times they were really used. Everything else he was was RP. As for SHI... Imp Never, and I mean NEVER idled for cash. I think the few times he was there, he was visiting someone else there.
I may have liked Johnny the most, and despite his @wow, he was never an asshole to me. Johnny is an accomplished coder, and as I remember, a fair person. Sindome is in good hands.
Nice to see Wren too, and from a post I saw of his, it looks like he may have grown up some, and maybe turned out OK. Take it easy.
To everyone else who knew me... Later.
To those who never knew me, didn't miss much.
