Now, as I said in my other post, I don't know any of them too well, but I do somewhat know Rastus. Since I'd feel uncomfortable gravelling at the feet of someone I didn't know, I'll just get down on my knees and beg Rastus to stay. (This doesn't mean I don't want Damon and Nixxi to stay, because I do.. )
*gets down on her knees and attatches herself tightly to Rastus's leg* PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON'T GO!!!
*puppy dog eyes*
Seriously, if they feel that they can stay I'm sure everyone would love for them to. I am, as always, in awe of the amount of work that I have seen attached to their names and the will be greatly missed and I suspect in a way Grim is right that their leaving might be detrimental to the moo and will certainly set it back some.
I fear the post, once made, will be quickly deleted. I like to hope it won't be, I'd -like- to thing the remaining admin would show me some respect in posting my final words, even if they don't like what I have to say. Sadly, in the last few days I've lost all faith, respect and any ounce of kinship or friendship I had with the man that wields the ultimate power to silence me in these forums.
For now, I'll address the questions raised in the last few posts that have diverted me from what I came here to post…
First and foremostly, in referece to Desolates first post, I certainly, and the others almost definately, do not have a lack of player appreciation even remotely on our minds. While I must admit I'm absolutely -stunned- by the response this event has prompted and cannot express how much everyones support means, the fact that people -played- our game was all the appreciation we ever needed. Each time that 'highest player count' on @who went up I felt good. Damnit, I felt great. I'd log onto CS and check their player count and when ours was higher I'd dance around like a loon, one in the eye for those that said Sindome would never amount to anything. Goddamnit, when I started playing Sindome the highest @who count was about 14 and the average was like 6 or 7. CSers mocked Sindome as the wannabe, the ship that would never sail, let alone float. Then we -arrived-. I remember the day when I actually FELT Sindome had 'arrived', the first time I saw our player count higher than CS's at a BUSY time of day. I'm no big fan of sports, but that day I felt just what it was like to see your team score against a superior opponent in a cup final game...
Meh, that went on longer than it should have...
I remember -knowing- I would never leave Sindome. Damnit, this summer was THE summer when my dream to have a Sindome tattoo was going to be fulfilled. This was the year I was going to permenantly mark my body with my dedication to SD. Thank GOD this happened before and not after...
I appreciate your efforts to "bring us back" but I'm afraid the damage is done. Things have been said that cannot be unsaid, feelings have been formed that cannot be forgotten. I had high hopes for Sindome but now I'm left with nothing but a bitter taste in my mouth and selfish hopes that it fails miserably and is forgotten.
I'll post again later. I fear what I have to say will doubtless make some of you think much less of me and others will dismiss as self serving propoganda. Nevertheless, I will say it. If you want to read it then I urge you to let Johnny know you have issues with his recent censorship of these forums and deletion of posts that do not meet with his approval.
And on a side note, Damon is away on 'manouvers' or something until Sunday night, otherwise I'm sure he would have things to say in reply to you all.
And on a final note (for this post). For those of you perhaps formulating certain opinions that the admin have formed into two 'camps' in this war, I restate the fact that all three admin left in seperate incidents with no connecting factors. I have NOT 'joined' Damon and Nixxi, I have not once connected to "Damon's Sindome" and have, since we all left, spoken to him ONCE, briefly, to "chit-chat" about "feelings". By all means address us together, but do not assume an "us vs them" scenario. When I post I speak solely for myself.